Good Evening Beloved
Hay, did you miss me? Hahaha ! :) It's been a few days since I logged on here and talked to you. Sorry about that my dear Future. I've been awake for the longest time, today I had a couple of naps and that was it. I wonder, what job do you have beloved? Does it keep you awake? What am sure of is whatever your job or career is I'd be there to cheer you on.
Ok, Am going to talk to you about my previous relationship. Now, hold on beloved, I just want to explain what went wrong. Smile a little ok? I love you. I won't go back to her. <3
Well, she was a very pleasing woman actually, headstrong and had dreams and ambitions. However, well she wanted to control where MY future would be. She wanted me to train with her in a hospital near her. Well, I had my own dreams, own aspirations. She wanted me to be there with her physically all the time. How could I chase my dream if I'm lock and chained down to her side. Right? I too was a dreamer however I'm not the type to control you beloved. I want us to grow together not hinder each other from pursuing what our souls long to do. It was like a cage. I was a lark held captive by a girl who was facinated by me and would not set me free. I became lonely and a shell of my former self.
Future, whatever your dreams are, whatever your soul yearns for, seeks to do, I will support you and I know you'd support me as well. The yearnings of the soul and heart are strong. An unfathomable force of nature making the clinically insane wise and the lame walk.
I guess that is what I yearn for beloved. :) Someone who'd support me but not chain me down. And that is you. I know You exist. I may not see you in this lifetime but I will wait for you in the next and the next till the universe would be tired of my waiting for you and hand you over to me.
I'm a patient person beloved. I will wait for you as I've waited for you eons ago.
Btw beloved, Am watching "Place Promised in our Early Days" ;) I wish I could watch it with you someday. It's anime.I know you'd understand my love for anime. :)
Anyway beloved, I got to burn the midnight oil (literally).
Goodnight beloved. May your dreams be happy always
Monday, June 23, 2014
Friday, June 20, 2014
Future day 12-13
Good Everning Future! <3
Your dear old partner slept sitting again now watching a movie called "Eat, Pray, Love". have you ever done that beloved? You know, soul search. Well, I'm on that path right now. I lost myself, let myself dissolve in my previous relationship. Now my soul rebounded. Lols, it echos in the depths of my being. Every cell of my body screams out the needs that were neglected.
Am a bit down tonight. Just tired I guess. Watching rock of ages to uplift my spirits. Am just tired. Don't worry beloved. In 10 days, Im sure I'd be refreshed. :)
Bye for now, I still got orders to fill love.
Your dear old partner slept sitting again now watching a movie called "Eat, Pray, Love". have you ever done that beloved? You know, soul search. Well, I'm on that path right now. I lost myself, let myself dissolve in my previous relationship. Now my soul rebounded. Lols, it echos in the depths of my being. Every cell of my body screams out the needs that were neglected.
Am a bit down tonight. Just tired I guess. Watching rock of ages to uplift my spirits. Am just tired. Don't worry beloved. In 10 days, Im sure I'd be refreshed. :)
Bye for now, I still got orders to fill love.
Wednesday, June 18, 2014
Future day 10-11
Morning Future!
Am so sorry beloved, I was so tired and wasn't able to talk to you for 2 days. In the future, this may happen again due to my work, but always remember you are always in my mind. <3
I'd just sing for you today beloved
"Somewhere Only We Know"
Am so sorry beloved, I was so tired and wasn't able to talk to you for 2 days. In the future, this may happen again due to my work, but always remember you are always in my mind. <3
I'd just sing for you today beloved
"Somewhere Only We Know"
I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?
Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know?
Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go?
So why don't we go?
Ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know?
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?
Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know?
Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go?
So why don't we go?
Ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know?
Monday, June 16, 2014
Future Day 9
Morning Future!
It's :430 am. I can't go back to sleep. Am so tired and I can't go back to sleep. Funny how that is a physiological abnormality. >.< Anyway, I saw a friend of mine yesterday, her name is Pen. I barely talked to her before in college but well, I don't know but it's as if I just saw her yesterday. It's amazing how the mind works right? She told me that I never changed. Hmm, now that statement brings my curiosity up a notch. I wonder what is the "me" that other people see. I figured I'm a laid back guy who just wants to see the lighter side of things. However, that's not the case. She told me I was still as mysterious and as funny. Me? Mysterious? Hmm. I guess a person who likes their private life private is considered mysterious. The thing is Future, I don't want other people to meddle with my life decisions.
Will try to sleep. Hopefully I get to see you in my dreams. :) Nyt Future
Uh. Another goodmorning Future?
I slept like a log unfortunately you weren't in my dreams. My friend Laureen was and as usual I was still drinking in a bar, me pouring a drink and me and her talking. I should really get the dream catcher from an expo near our house. Might work. Who knows right? Ok ok, talking to Laureen is not the nightmare here beloved. Hahahha! I actually love talking to her. Never a dull moment. Anyway Future, the thing is am always saying "this is serious" with rain clouds on my head. So I guess am about to die? or something serious happened. I rarely have rainclouds on my head beloved. Hmm.
Anyway, I'd try to take a nap. My head aches. Seriously beloved... I'd try to sleep this one off.
It's :430 am. I can't go back to sleep. Am so tired and I can't go back to sleep. Funny how that is a physiological abnormality. >.< Anyway, I saw a friend of mine yesterday, her name is Pen. I barely talked to her before in college but well, I don't know but it's as if I just saw her yesterday. It's amazing how the mind works right? She told me that I never changed. Hmm, now that statement brings my curiosity up a notch. I wonder what is the "me" that other people see. I figured I'm a laid back guy who just wants to see the lighter side of things. However, that's not the case. She told me I was still as mysterious and as funny. Me? Mysterious? Hmm. I guess a person who likes their private life private is considered mysterious. The thing is Future, I don't want other people to meddle with my life decisions.
Will try to sleep. Hopefully I get to see you in my dreams. :) Nyt Future
Uh. Another goodmorning Future?
I slept like a log unfortunately you weren't in my dreams. My friend Laureen was and as usual I was still drinking in a bar, me pouring a drink and me and her talking. I should really get the dream catcher from an expo near our house. Might work. Who knows right? Ok ok, talking to Laureen is not the nightmare here beloved. Hahahha! I actually love talking to her. Never a dull moment. Anyway Future, the thing is am always saying "this is serious" with rain clouds on my head. So I guess am about to die? or something serious happened. I rarely have rainclouds on my head beloved. Hmm.
Anyway, I'd try to take a nap. My head aches. Seriously beloved... I'd try to sleep this one off.
Future Day 8
Good Day beloved!
I'm a bit busy today. I missed all of my stops. Lols. I slept in the trains and jeepneys again. Guess am more tired than I thought. Anyway, I had a perfect song today for you. :)
You Fill Up my Senses by John Denver
You fill up my senses like a night in a forest,
Like the mountains in springtime,
Like a walk in the rain, like a storm in the desert,
Like a sleepy blue ocean.
You fill up my senses, come fill me again.
Come let me love you, let me give my life to you,
Let me drown in your laughter, let me die in your arms.
Let me lay down beside you, let me always be with you
Come let me love you, come love me again.
Let me give my life to you,
Come let me love you, come love me again.
You fill up my senses like a night in a forest,
Like the mountains in springtime,
Like a walk in the rain, like a storm in the desert,
Like a sleepy blue ocean.
You fill up my senses, come fill me again.
Bye for now beloved Future. I got to run again
I'm a bit busy today. I missed all of my stops. Lols. I slept in the trains and jeepneys again. Guess am more tired than I thought. Anyway, I had a perfect song today for you. :)
You Fill Up my Senses by John Denver
You fill up my senses like a night in a forest,
Like the mountains in springtime,
Like a walk in the rain, like a storm in the desert,
Like a sleepy blue ocean.
You fill up my senses, come fill me again.
Come let me love you, let me give my life to you,
Let me drown in your laughter, let me die in your arms.
Let me lay down beside you, let me always be with you
Come let me love you, come love me again.
Let me give my life to you,
Come let me love you, come love me again.
You fill up my senses like a night in a forest,
Like the mountains in springtime,
Like a walk in the rain, like a storm in the desert,
Like a sleepy blue ocean.
You fill up my senses, come fill me again.
Bye for now beloved Future. I got to run again
Saturday, June 14, 2014
Future Day 7
Morning Future!
Last night as I went to University of the East hospital, It's a hospital 40 mins away from my house. I saw an old gaming buddy of mine. I was quite amused how he first remembered my gaming handle than my real name. It's been about 7 years since I heard my old gaming handle. I was used to be called " Priestess of the Moon, Orion's Stargazer". Yes I know I know, its a mouthful. He shouted out, "Stargazer! May pasyente ka ba dito? (he asks if I have a patient there or am I a visiting consultant). I had flashbacks of my days in sweaty computer shops. They used to shout my name, like how the mob in a colesseum shouts for their prized gladiator. Well, that's another story beloved. Back to my old gaming handle...where the heck did I get that name? Well, I used to stargaze nightly ever since I was a kid. I still do it till now, like once a week? Anyway, I stargaze when there are questions bothering me. Pretty emo kid huh? Lols. I wonder, have you recently seen the stars? I like clear skies at night but sometimes, well like the sky our lives get a bit "cloudy". Even if life, or the skies get "cloudy, even if you can't see the stars, they are always there. You're my star beloved. I know sometimes shit happens, I get lost, I fail, I know that well, there is the thought of you :) Hope.
I wish you Hope beloved. I'd see you. No worries. <3
I'd continue this post later beloved... talk to you again later
Last night as I went to University of the East hospital, It's a hospital 40 mins away from my house. I saw an old gaming buddy of mine. I was quite amused how he first remembered my gaming handle than my real name. It's been about 7 years since I heard my old gaming handle. I was used to be called " Priestess of the Moon, Orion's Stargazer". Yes I know I know, its a mouthful. He shouted out, "Stargazer! May pasyente ka ba dito? (he asks if I have a patient there or am I a visiting consultant). I had flashbacks of my days in sweaty computer shops. They used to shout my name, like how the mob in a colesseum shouts for their prized gladiator. Well, that's another story beloved. Back to my old gaming handle...where the heck did I get that name? Well, I used to stargaze nightly ever since I was a kid. I still do it till now, like once a week? Anyway, I stargaze when there are questions bothering me. Pretty emo kid huh? Lols. I wonder, have you recently seen the stars? I like clear skies at night but sometimes, well like the sky our lives get a bit "cloudy". Even if life, or the skies get "cloudy, even if you can't see the stars, they are always there. You're my star beloved. I know sometimes shit happens, I get lost, I fail, I know that well, there is the thought of you :) Hope.
I wish you Hope beloved. I'd see you. No worries. <3
I'd continue this post later beloved... talk to you again later
Future day 7
Good evening future!
:) Yep, your dear partner had a rough day today. But the thought of you in my future kept me from being down. Thanks. I'm so tired am seeing stars in the computer screen. (amazing! the looney toons cartoons were right! LOLS)
I dream of a hug whenever I get home before I drag myself to bed with you beside me. Your warmth would ease any physical pain. Your breath on my chin would calm my senses. How I wish I could time travel now.
I dig my toes into the sand.
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds strewn across a blue blanket.
I lean against the wind, pretend that i am weightless and in this moment i am happy.
[Chorus:]
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here.
I lay my head onto the sand.
The sky resembles a backlit canopy with holes punched in it.
I'm counting ufo's.
I signal them with my lighter
and in this moment i am happy, happy.
[Chorus]
The world's a roller coaster and I am not strapped in.
Maybe I should hold with care,but my hands are busy in the air.
[Chorus]
:) Yep, your dear partner had a rough day today. But the thought of you in my future kept me from being down. Thanks. I'm so tired am seeing stars in the computer screen. (amazing! the looney toons cartoons were right! LOLS)
I dream of a hug whenever I get home before I drag myself to bed with you beside me. Your warmth would ease any physical pain. Your breath on my chin would calm my senses. How I wish I could time travel now.
I'd just sing for you before I sleep future. :)
Wish you were here Incubus
I dig my toes into the sand.
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds strewn across a blue blanket.
I lean against the wind, pretend that i am weightless and in this moment i am happy.
[Chorus:]
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here.
I lay my head onto the sand.
The sky resembles a backlit canopy with holes punched in it.
I'm counting ufo's.
I signal them with my lighter
and in this moment i am happy, happy.
[Chorus]
The world's a roller coaster and I am not strapped in.
Maybe I should hold with care,but my hands are busy in the air.
[Chorus]
On a brighter side, Every pain that we feel, ever drop of sweat makes me feel ... alive. :)
Nyt beloved, I will still love you tomorrow even if I may seem deadtired to type today.
Nyt beloved, I will still love you tomorrow even if I may seem deadtired to type today.
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